Gasp!

Having cornrows isn't really a bed of roses.. or so to speak. My head was itching the whole day!! wanted so badly to scratch... but managed to control myself... but when i got back home, i sprayed lots and lots of the anti-itch spray thingy i got from the place i did my cornrows. *phew* relief.

and.. HAPPY MERDEKA! hmmm... don't really feel very patriotic now... oh well.. how you enjoyed your merdeka.

As for Liverpool on sunday, what can i say? sigh... foiled by a linesman with bad eyesight... haha... hope things will look up after this though...

Just another Sunday...

Well... this post is just a post for the sake of having a post. :P

Naaaah... I actually do have a few things in my mind......and one on my head!! hahaha!!
Just corn-rowed my hair yesterday! :) It looks ok, i suppose... If anyone wants to check it out, check my friendster profile, i'll be putting up pix of it there real soon...

Also.. looking forward to tonight's match at the Reebok stadium! (for those who don't know what i'm talking about, then i suppose that you don't need to know...hehe...) Hoping that i can see a good LFC team out there. A combination of Firsthalf vs Spurs and 2nd half vs ManC would be GREAT! looking forward to seeing Alonso and Garcia in action, wanna see what they're capable of...

Rescued yet again

It's Sunday again and guess what? I was the worship leader... well.. here's the story.

As you would already know, I've not been feeling exactly very cheerful lately, more melancholic and slightly depressed lately (but feeling a lil better than last...) . I suppose this really affected me in worship leading. was really out of sorts, my voice was making weird out of tune noises at practice last night and i just couldn't hold a note properly last night. At practice start, I only have 3 songs decided!! yikes!! and this is Sunday Service, we're talking about! Manage to scrape up 2 more songs as the practice went on. Really felt beaten when the practice ended. Then went for some fellowship with the musicians and other church mates (watched Liv win 2-1 as well!!! YEAH!!!)...

When i reached home, i was like: "God, if you don't help me now, the worship tomorrow will be dead!!!"... Anyway... i was half praying and half worrying and all the while listening to Hillsongs' By Your Side God spoke to me ... Then i changed some songs around, replaced one song and sorta redid the whole 'theme'...

And once again, God came and worked through me. I'm pretty proud to say that I was pretty much an empty vessel just being used by God this morning.... He came and made everything ok. The worship was fine as far as i could tell and felt that most people were blessed (i hope!) and most of all, I'm pretty sure He was blessed...

Moral of the story? Surrendering is not something that is easy for most of us. but when we do, God always comes and does his bit to make sure that His plans go well... It's really easy to think about it but i'm hoping that i can surrender and trust Him on His timing and plans... Not an easy thing to do, but will try none the less...

Some depressing stuff...

No... i'm not gonna talk about the injustices around world or about any of the poor children around the world... For now, im gonna wallow in a lil bit of self-pity (well... maybe i'll let you decide if it's self-pity) and gripe about a few things.

I've actually been kinda depessed since i got in uni 2 years ago. Tho i had some nice patches between then and now, I've really been disappointed with what i have and what's been happening to me. I'll leave out the things that happened long ago, cuz if i started, i'll take til tomorrow to finish this gripe...

As most ppl already know, i've been working part time for a month plus. I just got my pay-check just two weeks ago and guess what? It's less that a hundred... sigh... though i'm hopeful that i'll get more as time goes, i still can't help but be a bit affected by that. I mean, it's my first pay-check in the line of work that i'm studying for, fer cryin' out loud!

Then there's this question about guitar gear and stuff like that... money has been really hard to come by these few months. I can't afford to buy any of the gear that i want/need. I mean, I am 'supposed to be' a music student majoring in music tech/sound engineering. My friends doing medicine (Ju), business (Sam), pharmacy(KJ) etc all have better gear than I do... sigh... can't even afford to buy a decent amp here. Thought of getting an amp modeler instead (cheaper, i thought), but can't even really afford a good one now... sure i have a great Tak, but it just doesn't feel like it's enough.. for those non-guitarist reading: guitarist who want to play for a living CAN'T survive with just one type of guitar, you need to have a variety for the different sounds used in different sounds. Am i being picky?? i dunno... my SQUIER strat is like crap (that's how i feel about now anyway), and the pick-ups (best part of guitar) aren't even mine (tribute to Ju for loaning them to me)!! sigh... really depressing here...

As if not having guitar gear is bad enough, I can't even start thinking of getting recording/pro audio equipment yet.. that's like i need at least 5k TO START! sigh..

in case all of you haven't realised yet, i'm 'supposed to be' a musician/sound engineer... THESE THINGS ARE MY TOOLS OF TRADE!!!! sigh...

it's really easy to say that i have knowledge that not many have, but I guess that's not consolation enough. This is supposed to be my livelihood... knowledge is useless if i don't have tools to work with... sigh...

and further more, where am i heading? i mean, teaching is really fulfilling and all, but that's not what i really want to do. I really want to do studio work and stuff like that... i wanna produce someone's album, i want to set up concert sound-systems, i want to engineer music for people. How can i do that? UPM doesn't even have the facilities set-up properly for me to try out all the different things i can do on pro audio equipment.. sigh... and i'm supposed to learn there.. the classes don't cater me... i DO NOT claim to be an expert but my the lecturers are forced to teach basic things because... ermm... nah... shouldn't say it.. i really don't wanna insult/offend my coursemates. So you draw your own conclusion...

I also wanna further my studies. I want to do a post grad in Sound Engineering, Music production or something related. where can i do that here? UPM???? don't even have the facilities set-up properly. anywhere else? UMS? I'm not impressed at what they have. Where do i have in mind? University of Miami looks interesting, some Unis in UK look good... but guess what? $$$... or rather the lack of it... WHAT TO DO!?!?! don't even have money to get an air-ticket there let alone study there... sigh...

self-pity? You tell me. Whatever it is... it still depresses me....

Back home!!

WHEEEEEEEE!!!!
i'm finally back home in ipoh right now...just came back yesterday.
went yumcha with my friends too at night...
it's hard to think that i haven't been back for two months... might not seem much for a lot of you, but ipoh is only 2 and half hours' drive from kl.... and usually i come back every 2-3 weeks.. wow... this is the longest for me, i think... but surprisingly, i haven't been homesick.. just missed my mom n pop...

i'm just very glad that my pop has learnt to control his diabetic condition pretty well... n he's also learnt when he can take extra sugar as well!!hahaha.. happy for him...
my mom is the usual.... no biggie and no hype sorta mom... :D just wish that she'd be in kl to cook for me!!! oh well... looking forward to what she's gonna whip up while i'm back.

hope i can get lots of R & R back here... cuz it's gonna be back to classes, assignments and work when i get back to kl in a few days' time...

hmmm... i'm starting to miss my babygirl... sigh... when i'm far, she finally starts being extra cheerful.. maybe i should go far from kl more often... point to ponder... hehehe....

one more thing...

oh yeah... really need to say this... am kinda really excited that my 'baby' sister is in kl.... i'm 'kidnapping' her from her school trip thingy tomorrow and am gonna take her around...

after all these weeks and years in kl has made me realise something...
i really do love my sis... no matter how annoying and how crappy she manages to get!! hahaha...
it's really cool that we always seem to be at each other's throats and yet still manage to share a special brother-sister bond.

can't wait to pamper her on sat and sun... hahaha...

ps. to the other girls: start getting jealous!!! hahahaha!!!

Arrgh!!!!

Know what's the worse thing about playing in a session?

I was kinda playing my guitar to be recorded in one my classes... my coursemates were doing the recording...
so i actually concentrated on the whole thing and paid full attention to what i was playing... those who know me well will know that i have the attention span of a gnat... hahaha...
so i played... and i played.. and i played... and they said that it's a wrap...

when they tried to play it back... actually, they couldn't play it back!! ARRRGH!!! i have no idea what went wrong... but so frustrating... and furthermore i was sight-reading!!! that really sucks...

i'm actually looking forward to tomorrow. am meeting up with an old high school buddy of mine (not to mention jamming partner)... taking him around to check out some guitars... heheh.... drooling at the prospects... can't wait to pick out all the really expensive guitars and start jamming with him....whoooooo.... tangan gatal already...

speaking of jamming... had a great wednesday nightjamming (welll... sorta jamming anyway) with vix... managed to spit out some semblance of a song... can't wait to see what he can do with it... lyrics and melody wise....

Jeff

Look at me!!

Look at me!! I'm a blogger!!!
hahahaha...
anway... i'm starting this blog thing for a few reasons...
i think sometimes i NEED to get things off my mind... NEED to throw it outta my head... feels real good spreading my soul around the world...haha...
aaaaand, i think it'd be a good place for my friends to catch up on how i'm doing... yeah yeah... i see the eyes rolling already... i do suck at keeping in contact... so here's my lazy attempt to keep my buds updated on me...
there you have it.. the first post....next one coming up reeeeeal soon... i hope... hehehe...