Nothing is Black & White; It's all shades of Grey

The Awakening

2010-11-09T03:03:00.003+08:00

The dawn has arrived.

The gates are drawn opened.

The dam has been release.

The hourglass has been turned.

The wheels of words are turning.

The pen of the scribe is now active.

The story will resume.

grey and fading fast

2009-07-15T16:45:00.002+08:00

Of Tidal Waves And Change

2009-07-14T01:34:00.003+08:00

Is a tidal wave of change coming? Maybe it already has come and swept all over. Has it really drowned me out already? Maybe that's why it's so hard to breathe. How did i not see such a huge wave? Maybe some things in life really does blind you.

Hindsight is so tragically ironic. You see things that you wish you'd have seen earlier.

Is there any hope?

How can i start to describe the pain? maybe i'm not supposed to. maybe it's only for me to feel. How do i know where to turn? maybe i'm not supposed to. maybe it's time to jump

Normality of Tedious Routines Resumes

2006-01-04T16:40:00.000+08:00

Life is a little funny in it's own way. When you start working, things just seem to fly past without much excitement at all. Whether its a boring job or an interesting one, they're all the same; Wake up, Work sleep, wake up, work sleep... etc. Nothing else really to breakup the routine. Is it any different doing other jobs?

Starting my own business? I suppose the tedium in that would be worrying about cash flow everyday... oh well...

I just hope interesting things pop up. I don't like getting bored........................................

Work work in warcraft III peon style

2005-11-12T01:07:00.000+08:00

Would anyone believe this? I'm a lecturer and people actually call me "Sir". Hmmm..... that's a nice change.... :D

All this started when I didn't get the job offer from the studio which I was waiting for. The CEO of Ocean Institute of Audio Technology called me up and made an appointment. When I got there, it wasn't even an interview! I got a job offer right away! Now that's really something else. The next couple of days the studio came back to me with a job offer too... Now I had 2 to choose from.

I really don't wanna go all long winded and such... so in short, I chose the 'easy' path. Lots of time for me to 'rest' and do my other side projects ( teaching, albums etc) and pretty reasonable pay to boot! Thank you, God!

And a special shout out to my special one. You know who you are. *muax*

Alive

2005-06-07T03:56:00.000+08:00

I'm alive... and bored... and lost the craving to surf... hmmm.....

oh well....

Bad Management and Horrible Attitude (bmha)

2005-05-10T18:51:00.000+08:00

It's amazing how some people can be a GM or a CEO and know nothing about the products/services that their company is offering. I was doing some product research and stock purchasing today with my boss (who shall not be named). We went to this semi-big music intruments store (which shall not be named, again) in the city centre to check out what they have. Good stuff there and reasonable prices. So we decided to get a few of their guitars (ooops.....killed the secrecy a bit :p) to test the market where we are.

The staff there was aquainted to my boss and he gave us top notch service, the management, on the other hand, was a totally different matter. We picked out a few that caught our eyes and waited to inspect the stock that they planned to give us. Bmha #1 came along. The gm actually almost objected to that. Which company is that bad that they do not allow clients to inspect the stuff that they are selling?

Anyway, they brought the stock out and we did get to check the guitars that we ordered. We were satisfied with most of the things they brought out except for two items; a dreadnought acoustic/electric and a Peavey wolfgang (for the uninitiated: a type of electric guitar) lookalike. First off, the Dreadnought A/E. There were chips on the finish on the dreadnought! Imagine buying a brand new car with chips on the paint! They didn't have anymore stock so we didn't take any of that and end of that story.

Next, the electric guitar brought much more trauma. The first one that they took out, there was a ding in the neck! Like a dent on that brand new Saga you just bought; it's a cheap car but it shouldn't have bad quality! So we rejected that one and they brought another one out. The next one had a huge gap between the neck and the body! Imagine the door of your Saga not meeting the body panel. Onto the next one, The finish (paint) on it was horrible, a few big spots were missed! Think about the new black Saga with spots of metal at some places! Another one showed that it had a wood chipped out of the fret board! Let's go back to the new Saga, only this time it has a small chunk of metal missing from the bonnet! A few more horror stories come about but finally we manage to find a piece that we could compromise on; small issues but plays and looks great all the same. What's the point of saying all this? bmha #2 rears its face: The GM was angry at us for inspecting and checking what we wanted to buy!!! WOW! Did she expect us to take the shit that she was trying to push as decent products?

Why bad management? bmha #3: The staff that attended to us told us later that the GM, doesn't know nuts about guitars (and I assume music as well)! How far are you going to get trying to sell something that you know nothing about? So did SHE (the GM) only think of 'money in' and don't really care about the stuff that her company sells. That's disgusting. We were considered a nuisance by her because we insisted on quality. The business world maybe tough, but this is the perfect example of how to lose a customer quick. Her only saving grace is that her company offers products that are cheaper that competitors. Imagine when there are more companies offering the same advantage, i would bet my left nut that she would care more about checking her stock.

All this just reminds me of the Malaysian mentality. Just because some companies *cough*Proton*cough* *cough*BentleyMusic*cough* dominate their sector, it doesn't give them a right to be superior. They couldn't really care much about customer relations and quality control. This really pisses off the market that you're catering to. More so when you're talking about a market as small as Malaysia. When the market opens up, they WILL die out.

Malaysian mentality = me big, you small, me sell, you shut up! ???

You tell me.

For once, I wish I could walk into a big shop, be treated reasonably (not even asking to be treated special) look at products which are consistent in quality and get value for my money. Malaysia oh, Malaysia! Time to wake up.

PAINT ISTANBUL RED!!

2005-05-04T05:32:00.000+08:00

Liverpool is off to Istanbul!!!!!!!!!!

what an awesome match!!! Finnan and carra was superb! Garcia did his usual.

WOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!

GO REDS!!!!!!

YOU'LL NEVER WALK ALOOOOOONE!!!!!

Not dead

2005-04-29T00:00:00.000+08:00

Noooo... this blog's not dead... just a lil forgotten... hehe...

It's really surprising that I have less time online now than when I was still in Uni. And right now i'm just on part-time jobs... Still have permission from my parents to slack. Jealous? Well, I'm promising myself to be fully on my own in 2-3 months time.... Perhaps sooner.

Oh, btw,

HAPPY BIRTHDAY BABYGIRL!!!!!!!!!!!

Dreaming for a wish

2005-04-14T05:57:00.000+08:00

Wish I have a...........

oh well... all that one can do is wish. So for those curious about what sort of stuff that I long to have, I've posted up my wishlist on the places to go section. :) Thanks to froogle for the wishlish. Now I wish that froogle would have better search results... sigh....

Stupid currency exchange

2005-04-08T19:19:00.000+08:00

Sigh.. It's really crap to have such a low exchange rate...

Let me start here:
I'm looking at a few great guitars right now. Absolutely beautiful things. Mid-range sorta prices too! Wouldn't you call 500 midrange? And that's an instrument I can use for life. But wait....... That's 500 in US dollars... if i'm getting paid in US dollars in US wage standards (i think) , say I'm getting about 1k a month right now. And that'd be no problem for me buying that 500-bucks guitar in a month or two's time (taking into account money for living, that is). However, i'm earning RM's... small little buggers.. So in Malaysian wages, i'm earning 1k a month. And the guitar now costs 2k!! i'll be lucky if I can get the guitar in 6 months! Heck, i'll be luckier still if it's sold here in Malaysia... sigh....

Still not too bad, really. At least I still get nasi lemak for less than 2 bucks...! :D

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Oh, btw, pls sign this. It's for a wakeup call for TMnet.

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2005-04-07T04:31:00.000+08:00

I'm freeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee.....

:D

Mom

2005-03-17T15:31:00.000+08:00

No matter where I go or what I do, I always think of how much my mom has given to me.

The fact that I'm holding my Takamine is all thanks to my mom. Even My new guitar and the adrenalinn put together still can't match the price of the Takamine. :) Thanks mom.

Also many thanks for the car(not mine but she's let me use it full-time the past 2 years), the com, and whatever else I can't think of right now.

I'm gonna get something nice for you for your birthday this year! :) It might come a lil bit late but it'll come none-the-less!

Happy early Birthday, MOM!!!!

Sick things do happen

2005-03-14T01:14:00.000+08:00

check this out.

Slipping into some sort of routine

2005-03-07T15:30:00.000+08:00

Sleep at about 2am. Waku up at about 8.30 am. Roll about the bed for about half hour. Head off to UPM studio *TRYING* to do the stupid album. Go home at about 10.30. Practice til about 2 am while messaging/talking to Jo. Sleep at around 2am then rinse and repeat cycle.

ARRGGH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I hate having to do an album alone. I hate the fact that I have great equipment to use BUT not have a good sound-proof recording room! Trully royally suck. Project update: 40% done so far. Intensive work left: 30%. "I-would-probably-enjoy" work left: 20%. Tedious paper work: 10%. Everything should be ok. The thing is. I'm presenting all this on 31st of March! Oh well.

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Want some great food? My babygirl treated me to a great dinner at "Flamin J" at USJ 2 weeks back. I still remember it. great stuff there. Chilli's standard food for half the price!! :D

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Learnt lots of new things about my new baby, the Dillion, and learnt how stupid newspaper reviewers can be. Edward Gomes of The Star is a half idiot! And I quote from his review (link might expire on 9th March), "For a start, I found that the extended scale length allows for deeper, low tones. In fact, the bass notes were positively booming." The thing is, the guitar uses a SHORTER scale length as compared to other guitars!! Actually the same as a Les Paul. And I can explain from a physics point of view on how longer scale lengths give LESS bass. sheesh. Wish people would make sure they know what they're talking about BEFORE publishing it. Having said that, I generally agree with most of the other things he had to say about the guitar, both good and bad. However, I think the fretboard isn't really bad, Just that Star didn't take care of the guitar when it was handed to them for the review. And the Dillion is a bit harder to play when you first get is because of the short scale length. Combined with the fact that it is a 24-fret one (other 24-fretters ussually use 25.5" scale but this one is 24.75" scale), it takes slight adjustments to play it shread-fast. I'd say that Edward Gomes isn't too good at adjusting his technique.

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Gasp!

2005-02-16T13:17:00.000+08:00

I did it!!! I bought a new electric!! Gasp... not a cheap one at that...

But it is a beauty! Don't have the pictures right now, but it's the Trans Black one here.

RM 2k and counting!... I feel the pinch already!...

And more tension building up too... Final project is definitely behind schedule.

EEEEpoh...

2005-02-07T20:06:00.000+08:00

YEAH... i'm back home....

Nothing's changed :D it's still as messy!! hahaha... my room's still feels like my room... i think. My sister and i still fight over the tv and com, the dogs still love me (!!!), and there's still loads of junk to eat here...

and...... it's still hot here... ugh... But that's normal during chinese new year.

Oh, and the food here is still as good as ever. Started off today with kam hor noodles, hoping much mroe good food coming in the next few days :D

hmmmm.... don't feel like writing anymore... oh well...

GONG HEI FAT CHOI

oh... and I love the cute goofy one ;)

Work, work...

2005-01-26T14:02:00.000+08:00

It usually takes professional musicians along with a whole team of sound engineers, sessionists, vocalist and a producer anytime between 6 months up to 2 years to come up with a 6-10 song album. How long would it take me? Or the question now is; how long IS it going to take me?

It's tedious! Songwriting, arranging, sequencing, recording, tracking, equipment setup, and the list can keep going and going... argh... help, anyone?

The worse thing right now is that I'm having a badcase of writer's block (or is it musician's block?). Can't get anything 'inspiring' out at all... Just going through the motions of arranging and sequencing...
ARGH....

Oh well... here's to the midway report on Monday... *toasts a nice glass of wine*

Adrenalinn!!!!

2005-01-23T15:16:00.000+08:00

I love the adrenalinn!!!! Used the Roland Jazz and the Vox AC-10 in service (emulated using the Adrenalinn, of course). The only thing I can say is that I'm very happy with the adrenalinn!! The clean sounds were sparklingly clean and clear. It was bell-like when I needed it to be and the bridge pickup sounded lush-er than usual.

Talking about Guitars...

2005-01-06T20:49:00.000+08:00

I was thinking... I still remember my first guitar. It was a Suzuki acoustic guitar which was a hand-me-down from my pop. And it's still alive now... but unfortunately it's with Charis... unfortunately because she forgets to give it back to me all the time !! haha...

Next came along this RM300 Santana brand guitar which was also ok, given that i could only play a little back then. It lasted for about a year before my friend, Ee Piew (who tries to masquerade around as Jeff), decided to do be goofy and broke it's neck. Ugh...

Next up, it'll be the RM500 Cadenza that my pop got for himself but i kinda stole from him anyway. It was a small body one but it was really nice to play. Real good one... for the price, of course. Played it everywhere, in church, in camps and such...

Somewhere between that, came my Fender Squier. A nice little thing which cost about RM 600. This was a really nice story. I was coming home from Youth group one day to find my dad playing this really loud red guitar. And guess what? That was my Christmas present for that year. Yup, I still have it today and upgraded it a lil bit. *why does it feel like i've type this before somewhere?* Got pickups from a Mexican Strat (thanks to Ju!). Replaced the tuners and now it's pretty sweeeeet.

Right now, the pride of my guitars is a very nice Takamine AN-45. Whaaaa? It's a solid wood all round guitar. Very nice indian rosewood back and sides... The back grain is really beautiful. Instead of going straight down. It forms an ellipse of sorts centering on the middle line. The top is cedar which is soft and beautiful, acoustically and aesthetically. No inlays on the fretboard but none needed. It's great just by it self. It has a nice Abalone rosette though. The binding is some cream material mixed with beautiful wood. And all this would be mine if it wasn't for my mom consenting to a moment of sensible madness to get it for me as a studying-cum-many-years-christmas present. Thanks, Mom. :) Ok ok... i promise pictures to be up sometime soon. hehehe... depends on whether I can get a good camera for it. :D

Now... my target is an electric guitar. I already have a very nice 3 single coil one in my Frankensquier so the next one is a dual humbucker monster...I hope... hahaha... I was checking out Gibson SGs and saw a very nice new one at Woh Fatt. BUT.. it was 3.6k! not worth it. Could have gotten one from the 'States but nah.. too risky. Though of an Ibanez JS1000 Satriani Signature but then again... I'd have to get it from, of all places, Bentley... double yucks. Then I read articles from Ed Roman's Commercial site and they were pretty 'informative' though kinda one sided. Anyway, now i've settled for a double octaver, archtop guitar. What's within my reach? Check out this one out. Really nice Quilted Maple top and it's double octave! The plus is that i think i can get it for a deal!! :)

Now to start dreaming about guitars again...

Liverpool and the Tsunami

2004-12-28T22:42:00.000+08:00

Liverpool won 5-0 2 nights ago but i was too sleepy to watch it... sigh... but let's see what they can do tonight against Southampton. Come your REDS!! YNWA!!!

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On to something more sobering.
It was a real shocker that this could happen to Malaysia despite the fact that Malaysia is one of the safest (fault-line-wise) geographically. Oh well. I can only think of all the little miracles that happened; like this one. Just need to say a little prayer for those 20k perished plus many uncounted loved ones affected.

An even more sobering fact: It's black and white (yup, no grey area there) in the bible that as the end times approaches, more and more disasters will occur. Is it a mere coincidence that this Tsunami is cause by a 8.7 earthquake? For the uninitiated, 8.7 is bigger than the one that destroyed Kobe a decade or so ago. That was *only* a 7.2 quake (around that figure can't really be 100% sure). Oh well, let's see what else comes along...

Merry Christmas!!

2004-12-25T01:43:00.000+08:00

This post is in RED to share the Christmas Joy!!...I think...

Well, here I go again, i'm going to rant a while before starting to say something nice. I was walking in shopping complexes the other day and the Christmas songs were driving me nuts!! Ikea was playing ABBA Christmas junk, Midvalley was Jingling Bells and Snowing in the Tropics and Pyramid was having flashing santa hats all over. Not that I don't like Christmas Carols or anything like, on the contrary, I love them... Just that all the songs (not that I didn't use Carols) played as "Christmas Songs" had to do with snowmen, snow, white christmas, santa, rudolph, 7 days of Christmas (they even have a Muppett song for that!!no kidding!!!!) and jingling bells and snow sleds. What do all those have in common? It isn't Christmas, that I can tell you. That's what AMERICAN kids do in winter. Not something that's really universal. Play some real Christmas Carols, will ya? How bout Alone in the Manger? Come all Ye Faithful? What child is this? Joy to the World? Christmas isn't about snow, snowmen or santa. Santa DOESN'T exist, btw. (sorry, kids, it's true) At least not the fat jolly one that people like to show.

In some ways, I do hate Christmas. Only when I have junk Christmas songs blasting in my ears repeating itself. Ugh.. They can't even record those properly. Also, don't like it for what the media and shopping malls do to it. It's totally commercial! Not that it's bad to sell things, just bad to fully exploit the reason to do it. You buy stuff (deco and presents) because it's Christmas, and not, it's Christmas because you buy stuff (deco and presents again). *eyes rolling til eye sockets hurt*

Oh! Guess what?! Heard that CCM (Council of Churches Malaysia??) agreed to have the "National" Christmas Day Celebration with the government (can't really confirm that, i'm not a second person news basis). The things is, they also agreed to play only Christmas "songs" that has Snow, Snowmen, Santa and the like. BUT none that even remotely mentions the words 'Baby', 'Jesus' etc... get the point? Go figure that one out.

After having said all that, however, I have to say (more...hahaha) that I love Christmas in that it does bring out the best in most people. I've seen great charities get done in Christmas. I've seen people spend and sacrifice to get things for loved-ones AND not-so-loved-ones. Also, you get to see PTPTN finally GIVING out the loan monies. *ok ok, will hold the sarcasm*

Merry Christmas.

This are the definitions I got for the word "merry" from Dictionary.com:

Full of high-spirited gaiety; jolly.
Marked by or offering fun and gaiety; festive: a merry evening.
Archaic. Delightful; entertaining.
Brisk: a merry pace.

True enough that this is a season to celebrate and be happy but can we be Merry KNOWING why we are merry? Think about that... Symbolically, it has something to do with a certain lil baby that came over 2000 years ago. That's the gift that you can never 'beat'. I'm all for that! so....

MERRY CHRISTMAS!!!!!!!!!

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Special wishes to my Family who i'm not with this time around. Merry Christmas to Mom, Pop and 'chelle.

Also not forgetting my babygirl... Merry Christmas, Jo...

Believing without Seeing?

2004-12-17T02:32:00.000+08:00

I didn't want to share this out loud, actually. However, I'm currently listening to a song that goes:

You are my hope,
You are my strength
You're everything, everything that I need;
You are my hope,
You are my life,
You are my hope,
You are my hope.

Those who recognize it will know that this is a song i've sung in church before, it's called You are my hope by Skillet.

Sometimes, you just know that He is there for you even though you don't even feel it at all. Let me start from a few weeks ago. For the past 3-4 weeks, I've really been making an effort (yup, you who know me know that his IS a BIIIG effort!!) to get up very early and go to the church Prayer in the morning before the sunday service. The few of us there have been praying every morning and slowly things are happening. We pray for things like growth and numbers in church; but the most important thing that Sist Jacs puts on the list (it appears EVERY week) is protection of members. How significant can something so general be?

In short, it all culminates to my "event" on Monday night. I'll be honest, in my mind, it's just "So I flipped my car... big deal." As arrogant as I'm going to sound, I think the song best sums up how I felt. I really do not wish to go into details of how the accident happened; enough of people speculating whether i'm speaking the truth or not. The main point is, as I found out I had no control of the car anymore, I didn't feel scared at all. The car skidded across 3 lanes, faced the wrong way, and ended up on the side underneath high ramp. Yup... still no fear there. All I could think off was getting out of the car. The first, and only, fear that did cross my mind was... "$#!+, what's my mom gonna say?!!?"

Long story --> short = The car flipped yet no glass was broken, the car still looked like a car (though banged up, of course) and the car was 'safely' under a bridge. How do you wanna explain that? To be honest, I can't. Can you? To add to the confounding circumstances, I got off with only a small (2 inches long, half inch wide) bruise on my back. Add all that up with the fact that I wasn't one bit scared for my life and you'll see the equation of what faith does.

The magic of it all is this, there's no reason why I escaped unscratched ('cept for one bruise) other than because that's the way He wants it. Things are always moving in ways that you will not see. What's the point fearing in what's to come when it's all already planned out by the Master Planner?

He is the hope, He is the Strength, He is the life and He is the hope. Some things don't need visible evidence to be proven right; just have the faith to close you eyes and fall back into the protective net that He can provide. The protection, the calmness and everything came from the One source. Check Him out. Sometimes just being a lil close is enough to see what he can do. Admittedly, I'm not as close as I used to be back in my teens but He is faithful. I'm walking proof.

Dedicated to Michelle

2004-12-10T04:41:00.000+08:00

Hey michelle, this post is for you.

Enjoy the bananas.

And thanks for all the torturous times as my lil sister.... naaaah... seriously, thanks for good childhood. I never really could put a finger on why we're as close as we are but I suppose that's the beauty of it, eh?

Current Mood

2004-12-09T06:24:00.000+08:00

EUPHORIC!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

This post will be in Red because this is the colour for today. Liverpool won a dramatically exciting match 3-1!!!!!!!!!!!

Words just can't convey how i feel now!!! I'M SHOUTING LIKE AN IDIOT HERE!!!!! YEAH!!!!!

Go Liverpool, go Liverpool go Liverpool!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

WHOOOOOO!!!!!!!yeah, baby!!!

Guitar heaven...

2004-12-08T14:00:00.000+08:00

I just died and went to guitar heaven today!! haha...

I've just managed to spend nearly 3 hours today trying out and testing out some great guitars. Today was a Takamine day...

I am actually doing a friend's brother a favour, I'm helping him check out guitars to buy. He already half-decided that he wants a Takamine, can't blame him, great guitar! Have one myself!!! Anyway, so i went today to do some scouting and me being a regular at Mahogany's, they just let me browse any and almost all the guitars that i wanted... and they trusted me enough that they let me do it alone...

So did i take advantage of that? OF COURSE I DID!!! Checked out so many guitar and, boy, was I having a nice time. Tried everything from the RM800 ones to one RM19k Martin Eric Clapton Signature Guitar. Found a new dream guitar as well. It's called the Takamine Santa Fe (SF-95). Not only does it sound great, it look like a dream as well. Beautiful Rising sun inlays on the fretboard and exquisite wood and abalone shell rosette inlays... really drooling now... if only i can cough up the cash, eh? HAHA! Until then, i'll just continue dreaming because it's ok RM 4.8k!!!!!!

Another beauty that I saw was a really nice Koa back and sides guitar, very beautiful wood grain. (for the uninitiated, Koa is a rare and beautiful wood only found in Hawaii). Can't remember what the model was though. Anyway, it sounded solid and balanced. The Koa was just.....beautiful... don't know any other way to describe it. All that for only RM6.8k! *rolls eyes* If only... sigh...

Oh well... gotta say that i'm still extremely happy with my Takamine AN-45. That's the best present I've ever gotten. EVER. It's solid cedar top and solid rosewood backs and sides.And that's thanks to my MOM! Love ya, mom.

I wish everyday was guitar heaven.... *dreaming now, please leave a message for when Jeff wakes up*

Laksa Laksa and Laksa

2004-11-30T20:27:00.000+08:00

Yup, you guys are smart, i'm gonna talk about laksa.

Today was a double does of laksa for me... Had laksa Sarawak at Tesco and then had Laksa Johor at Laksa Shack in Pyramid... now my stomach feels "burnt" by all the acid and hot stuff.. hehehe...
BUT... all of it was pretty good... But one thing, for the life of me i can't differenciate the two, they do taste different but right now can't describe them... one thing for sure: it was a good eat.

The laksa shack has good laksas i think, but definitely overpriced a lil. Laksa was 7.90 and the CAN of coke was 3. The serving was ok... but a bit on the pricey side for 'just' laksa. There's a place at KLCC food court that also sells al sorts of laksa. Same price as laksa shack but DOUBLE the serving!!

Enough about laksa already, now to get a good dose of penang assam laksa, any ideas anyone?

Something to be proud of?

2004-11-29T03:37:00.000+08:00

I'll try not to sound like an ass here... but here is goes:

Results are out in UPM... or rather, they have been out for quite some time but I've just gotten around to checking them.

GPA=3.8

I know I should be very happy about that but I am actually not elated by that at all. I'm not unsatisfied or anything like that, mind you, just feeling numb. Exam results just do not seem important to me anymore. Who's gonna ask you how you did for your Pop Composition subject? not many, I'd gather (It was an A, incase you're wondering... hehehe). It feels to me, now, that exam results are immaterial and pretty much useless when you're talking to 'real' people and doing 'real' work. How good you are is judged by what you can accomplish and how good your product/'fruit' is. oh well... rant's gonna stop here...

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I'm right now in the middle of touching up my Final Project proposal paper. So sneaking off to laze.

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Neil Mellor for president!!!!! or Prime Minister?? hehehe... don't know who he is? He just score the winner for LFC v Arse just now.. scored it with a spectacular shot from 25 yards in injury time!!!!!! YEAAAAH!!!! Liv 2-arses 1 GO REDS!!!!!

A Small Tribute

2004-11-20T02:23:00.000+08:00

Yesterday (or two days ago), my sis found a really interesting picture. It was when I was about 12 and it goes like this:

This small boy gave his pops a kiss on the cheek and the dad was smiling. Well, the picture actually does describe it better but don't have a scanner to scan it and upload it. But when i thought about the picture, I knew i still felt the same way, though he'd never let me kiss him like that again!! hahaha...

Anyway, the point is, I reminded me of how much I do love my father. Yeah, he shouts at me, and i shout back, but the unspoken things between him and me goes deep (I'd like to think so...). I really couldn't start counting the things that he's done for me and with me. From buying me stuff, which i had quite a collection of stuff like Transformers, Thundercats :D, Comics, Trading Card Games and the like; to doing stuff with me like watching football (screaming at refs=me, screaming at stupid young kid who can't keep quiet=my pop) and walking at malls (or what seemed like malls last time).

Thanks doesn't even touch sufficiency to give gratitute for a relatively great childhood. Still, THANKS for everything.

Thanks for all you've done.
Thanks for being the man that you are; honourable, brave(especially in decisions), loyal and trustworthy.
Thanks for trying and trying and trying.
Thanks for being my pop.

KL, oh, KL.

2004-11-20T02:15:00.000+08:00

Back in KL and some things just don't change...like the traffic... argh...

Throat got worse...sigh.. I'll blame it on KL air...

Went to KLCC today, had a nice time with babygirl... Just walked and talked and be silly... The perfect way to goof around...

update?

2004-11-16T13:13:00.000+08:00

reinstalled the $(!#*$! windows and now my com is back in action...

And guess what? My sorethroat is back for a record 7 times this year!! ugh...time for tonsilectomy? haha...i dunno... i'll have to ask my doc ;)

Good and Bad in Ipoh

2004-11-11T15:35:00.000+08:00

Whee!!! The good stuff....

It's been three days back home and kinda enjoyed myself. Had some of the usual good Ipoh food; Tuck Kee "Chow Fun", double dose of "Pak Kopi" and gonna go for somemore the next few days.

Bumped into Ian and Lai Yeen while walking at Kinta City. Was really nice having a drink and a chat with them. Then planned to have "Chuan Fong curry mee" with him the next morning but darn phone... *grumbles at phone* sigh.. Sorry, Ian, will make up for that in KL...

Met up with Koks and Tat too.. Hmm...nice girl, eh, Koks?

Had a nice surprise from my babygirl too :D She came to Ipoh on my birthday!! :) Tho it's just a one-night-stopover on her way home, it was really nice... HAd fun with her, talked and went out just a lil bit. Thanks, babygirl...

Also, thanks to all who called me and smsed me... :) special mention to Charis *winks*... hahaha....

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Now the bad... I brought back my cpu to Ipoh to backup my work and format the HD... but guess what? The *##!&(%@ windows died! stupid windows... stupid bill gates. If only there are more recognized alternatives to windows... there you go, monopoly at it's worst. Was supposed to do some work on my com too... Now i can't do nuts.. might have to cut short my holiday to get back to KL to settle my com. All my drivers and cds and stuff is in KL (which is another stupid story on my part)... Oh well...

Wish i'd have the dosh for a Mac system, should be way more stable than a stupid windows system. Plus, should be much better to do my things on a Mac..... Anyone knows a good 2nd hand G3 or G4 system that i can buy... less than 1K perhaps!!! HAHAHAHA... *dreaming*

Home

2004-11-08T17:11:00.000+08:00

I'm going back to Ipoh for a 10 day holiday!!! YEAH!!!

Any requests from anyone? hehe.... but i'm not promising anything tho, probably gonna be busy anyway. Got to go on with my proposal paper.

But still, home is home :) first time in 3 months, i think. Hoping it's gonna be better than my last trip back home :D

A good week?

2004-10-30T22:15:00.000+08:00

Whoa...long time no post? haha.. sorry leo and everyone else who reads here.

Just like mel, I had a great week. 4 new students :) so far so good for the part-time job. just hope that it wont take too much out form me when my final project starts to heat up.

Been enjoying playing around with the Adrenalinn... Anyone jealous yet? haha..

Had a great time yesterday with Jo at Midvalley...had Chili's Chips w/ Beef queso too... highly recommended to everyone...always have that when i'm at chili's... The beef thingy was really good and the corn chips and salsa refillable!! all for only 11 bucks... anyone for chili's soon? we'll chips til we puke corn... haha...

short one this time...

Thanks to mom and pop who's been praying for me. The interview at SIM was good. Starting work there too when there's enough students to make the drive worthwhile...

Holding on to Blessing

2004-10-19T05:30:00.000+08:00

It's a sad day today as Blessing will be put to sleep. Poor boy. In case you're wondering, Blessing is a good friend's Golden Retriever. I was talking to her about Blessing on Sunday when she said,"I shouldn't have named him Blessing, cause now Blessing is leaving me." She went on, "{insert friend/relation name,i can't remember} also named their dog blessing and he ran away after a few months!" The me with my too-fast-for-my-own-good mouth said, "Maybe we're not meant to keep Blessings anyway." Then it hit me.

Many times when we receive a Blessing we tend to want to keep it and hold on to it. Nice things, after all, make us happy, don't they? Many big and small Blessings make life and easier road to travel through. But notice that no matter how hard you try to hold on to a Blessing it always seem to disappear or fade away? Blessings are not meant to be kept or held on to but they're more meant to be passed on or shared.

How is it that some people who barely have extras in their lives still manage to outgive us and yet still remain happy? The fact that they're happy means that Blessings in their lives never run out. They get something that makes them happy, they'll probably share it or pass it along. And while they're doing that, some other people will probably be letting go of or sharing some Blessing which will reach them.

So it's a circle then, this Blessing business? Do you think many Blessings can come your way if it wasn't for someone else being willing to let go of it; or if it wasn't for someone wanting to share a good thing? Think about it.

Blessings are meant to be shared or given away, not to be enjoyed on a long term. Share it, pass it along, and see other blessings come your way. I dare you.

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On a related note, rest in peace, Blessing. Hope you've enjoyed your short life here on earth. I've enjoyed playing catch with you and also been slobered enough by you :) See you in heaven (don't all dogs go to heaven??

Til the end of time.

2004-10-07T18:49:00.000+08:00

no.... i'm not feeling depressed or anything like that.. That's the song which i've just finished recording on my pc yesterday (using only an SM-57 and the Adrenalinn II!!).. it was for my pop composition final assignment... but did a real bad job of mixing it though... my speakers are really badly coloured and my phones isn't balanced enough to let me mix the song properly... oh well... i'm kinda thinking of a way to post it online so you guys can gimme some comments.... any ideas?

What's in a pet?

2004-10-02T03:28:00.000+08:00

I was checking out eric's blog and that really reminded me of my four cute Dachshund at home, two tan males and two black females... It's really amazing the bond that can be built between sentient beings. I think that my dogs, despite being "just" dogs, really do 'love' me in their own way. Whenever i do go back to ipoh, i have a blast just playing with them.

One of the tan, Spunky, males usually bark like mad even before i'm near the house. My mom says that he will bark like mad when he hears the car, and sure enough, a minute or two later, i'll pull up the driveway.. And when i get down, he'll just look at me with his cute lil puppy eyes.

Another tan male, Rocky, is just so loyal and brave. Loyal? He doesn't even go out of the gate even when it's wide open. And when he does, he's just a whistle away. Walks? No problem, one very light tug on the leash, and he'll just be following.

Speaking of walks, one of the black females, Sheila, doesn't even need a leash, she just follows wherever i walk. And she's the cute one that when she was still a small lil puppy, she just fits snugly on my palm and just sleeps and when i wake her up and put my nose to her nose, she just snuggles her nose on mine and licks me then, being a puppy, just goes back to sleep... haha...

The last female, Kelly, just barks when she sees me. In fact, she just barks and barks and barks and barks and barks and barks and barks and barks.... kinda annoying after a while, but i do miss that a lil when i'm in KL.

All of them have these cute lil eyes that'll just mealt your heart and they're so energetic when you give them attention. In fact, i remember once long ago when i was just so depressed (can't remember about what though) , i really didn't know what to do. Then, while looking out my door, Spunky just looked at me a gave that sad whine. I think he knew i was sad. But point is, he made me chase him around and just played with me and that really just cheered me up so much... that's why til today i can't remember why i was so depressed. :D

More close bonds between dog and man? My friend, Jayson, has this cocker spaniel, Buddy, who is just soooo loyal to his owner. Here's the story: I'm no stranger to buddy, played with him and always recognises me for belly rubs when i'm at Jays' place. One day, i just decided to tickle the heck outta Jayson and guess what? when Jays started to scream like a little girl(hahaha), Buddy just gave me this mad dog growl and jumped between Jays and me. Of course he didn't know i was just disturbing Jays so he thought i'm trying to harm(?) Jays and just defends him, despite the fact that i'm Buddy's "friend". Very loyal to the owner indeed...

There's just so many more stories about loyal pets(dogs) and there can be a whole thesis about it. It's really so amazing and baffling that simple animals can build friendships and allegiances this close. Imagine is humans could even come close to being such good friends with each other, looking out for and taking care of and just being there for each other. What a wonderful world? yeah... i'm dreaming. but for now, even if there's no one in the world left to be make me feel good, i'll still have my dogs to play with, to abbuse(hahaha...NOT!!!) and to love and be loved by. Really hoping to play with them when i do get back to ipoh...

whoa boy...

2004-09-29T17:43:00.000+08:00

The end-of-sem-assignment-rush syndrome is here and i'm up to my neck in hot water. hehe...
Haven't got any decent sleep the last week or two. But it'll be over none the less by next wednesday :) pray that i'll hold up?

and i'm gonna splurge some money soon... on the Adrenalinn II. It's really been a hard decision to make, 1.5k-2k may not be that big a sum but it really is a huge ammount for me right now... To all the gearheads, check it out and tell me what you think.
Roger Linn Design
Harmony Central Adrenalinn II reviews
Last recommendations and comments before i get it people...

And of course, pop, what do you think?

Grumpy...

2004-09-22T23:05:00.000+08:00

It's always a wonder the difference what a good night's sleep can do for you. I've been feeling kinda grumpy for the most part today and i think i blame it on sleep... or rather, lack of it.

To be even more specific, i think the lack of a good night's sleep. Haven't really been having enough sleep for more than a week. Right now, i can only remember from friday, had only 5 hours, sat only 4, sun only 5, mon only 5 again and last night was about 7. Seven usually is enough but when i woke up this morning, ugh... felt like i never slept at all... oh well... let's see what happens to my sleep the next few days...

2004-09-20T03:33:00.000+08:00

It just hit me on Saturday that I've actually only 2 weeks left before finals are on. The thing is, there's no pressure/stress/worry or anything on my part. Weird? I dunno. Even this morning when my pastor was asking for those who are having major/final exams, i didn't feelt he urge to respond at all.

My friend, Wee Ming, once said something along these lines: "What's the point about worrying and studying extra hard for your exams? When you graduate, everyday will be a close examination of your skills and knowledge. If you don't know your stuff by the time the finals are here, chances are, you won't know your stuff when you need it when working." So there you have it. I'm pretty comfortable with my skills/knowledge/etc and i suppose that's why exams and exam results don't bother me as much. I have nothing to prove in exams. People should see what i'm capable of through my actions, not just from a piece of paper. I know plenty of people with a GREAT piece of paper but.... they aren't worth much in a practical sense... hehe... anyone feels insulted yet? :P I suppose all this can be blamed on society for wrongly putting the emphasis on exams rather than on learning. But that will be a discussion for another day. :)

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Longdrawn 2: Music for elevators. That was quite an ok gig. The first band was really crap though. They certainly Lied their way through. The vocalist couldn't sing a single note correctly, the guitars would be better known as noise. Next up was Free Love, they were quite decent; catchy riffs and somewhat acceptable lyrics. Full of energy. Sounded somewhat like OAG though. Her Reverie was my highlight though, with their stuff sound very dreamy and melodic. Justin, Keng and Co. did very well... Bought their EP too btw. KLPHQ was somewhat impressive with their own brand of instrumental music. The guitars mix very well with the sound samples. This Body Broken was good as well, though they could have been much better. They lost their lead singer recently and so their guitarist, Warren, had to do the vocals as well. He sang a lil bit shrilly though BUT he does have a good low voice, am puzzled why he doesn't use it properly... Furniture was impressive too. But there was this short annoying fat dude who kept disturbing when the one of the band members was intro-ing the band and songs... sheesh.. They played a lot with effects though. Lots of filter effects and synths and samples as well... Rich bunch I reckon. The supposed highlight was a disappointment for me. The Observatory was nothing spectacular. Relied a lot on loops and samples. The two songs that I heard (left early cuz had work in the morning! sigh...) was actually pleasant to hear but a bit repetetive. Their intro instrumental song was crap though. No head, no tail and no body. But gotta give them credit for the way they layer their sounds though.... I do think that they did suffer somewhat from overhype...

FREE FOOD!!!

2004-09-16T03:07:00.000+08:00

Back in my first sem, the best thing that happened to me was performing in some events and things like that. The highlight of the performances is usually is the dinner at the hotel! Musicians/performers/etc don't get to eat at the event itself but we eat before. usually buffets and stuff like that at the hotel's restaurant. Imagine free buffet at Palace of Golden Horses! yup.. been there, done that.

This time around, i think it'll be another buffet at Marriott. jealous? I'll be at Marriott Putrajaya tomorrow for a performance/presentation thingy. It's a pre-convo dinner for the bigshots at UPM thingy.. i assume we're doing the dinner music... yeah... entertain while others munch. Oh well, the life of a musician.....

Guess who the guest is... heheh... Sultan of Selangor. Not really the first time i've played in front of him tho. Did it on my first sem but i'd like to think that i'm a more mature performer this time around :D We'll be doing some classic P. Ramlee stuff (not my cup of tea but really fun none the less), some evergreens and some jazz stuff. I'll be doing guitar comps accompanying my coursemates, Gerald (Violin) & Xiaoyun (Flute); and Lecturers, Ooi Eow Jin (piano), Ariff (sop sax) and Joseph (bass); and a guest, Martin, on drums. Let's see how the royalty like us... hehe..

Oh, and i had a prety nice time with my mom... :)

and great surprise from my pop... thanks for the comment... really gave me a lift.... double :)

How good am I?

2004-09-11T23:37:00.000+08:00

I have been thinking and blasting myself really hard the past year or two about how lil improvement (relatively) I've had playing the guitar. Tried a few things here and there, tried new ways of doing old things and stuff like that. But despite all that, i felt like i wasn't good enough at all. That's really kinda disheartening and all when there's just something that I can't do properly or at least can't do well enough.

So here i was demonstrating something at FGA KL at their guitar class thingy (was invited by my boss, Mark, to play with him). While playing , i realized that i saw there were so many slack-jaws arround just admiring what Mark and I could do on the guitar. Having said that, I still didn't think that I'm really that great a player. But what hit me while I was driving back from that thingy was this:

I've been playing for 7-8 years perhaps. And looking back, I have improved and became a better player. Back then it was as such that being able to do barre F chord was like an achievement! haha.. silly me... now, much more complicated things i've been trying to do. And that was when i realized that i AM indeed not bad and like everyone else, always can improve on something. So with that revelation(and sorta burden being lifted) i felt better about myself. And on the same day, in church practice, a break through happened, some of the weird things i tried seemed so much easier, and everything was much smoother.

Moral of the story? If you would take some time to sit down and see how far you've gone and what you've achieved, as well as give yourself a pat on the back for it, you'll be amazed at how much more you can achieve. It's like giving yourself some credit and giving yourself some slack. This really helps to give you that lil boost to get you through a few tough things. Having said that, I do realize too that i can't rest on my laurels and just be proud of what i can do, instead, more things, tricks and weird things await me! :)

On a light note, my mom's coming to kl on sun! Can't wait to meet up with her. It's been sooooo long.... hmmm... perhaps i can get a good treat out of her!!! hahaha... do i hear someone say chilli's? hahaha....

Of sorethroats and waking up

2004-09-06T03:30:00.000+08:00

That damned sorethroat isn't getting any better. sheesh. In fact, it's now worse! A very sharp pain everytime i swallow... oh well.

This morning, I got up at like 11.30, but the best part was, church is at 10! Missed it by an hour and half. Officially I put the blame squarely on my alarm clock which didn't ring. But the point is, why is it always that hard to wake?

I'm reminded by a good story that a good friend of mine told me (what i remember of his story anyway). His alarm rang and woke everyone in his house up EXCEPT him. His mom shook him up and he switched off his alarm and went back to sleep. 15 minutes later, his mom dragged him out of his room where, after his mom went to the kitchen, he promptly plomped on the couch to sleep further. Later on, his mom dragged him into the bathroom where lo and behold, he still managed to sleep sitting on the royal throne! but then, after a lil threatening with water, he gave up, brushed his teeth and well, woke up!

Another friend of mine is also well known for his non-waking-up antics. Non other than the famous Benloke. The way things went is, he would usually ask you wake him up but if you actually manage to wake him up, get ready for some abuse from him! hahaa...but if you didn't he still abuses you. All that after about 2 hours later than when he wanted to wake up.

Funny old thing this waking up thing is. Now, if only i could wake up as easily without much fuss. But if i did, then i suppose that would be when waking up time is at 12 noon!

Ugh...

2004-09-02T13:44:00.000+08:00

Darn... my throat hurts like mad. Body's feeling woozy and hot. Can't think straight...
I hate being sick.

Pray for me, will ya?

Thanx

Gasp!

2004-08-31T19:59:00.000+08:00

Having cornrows isn't really a bed of roses.. or so to speak. My head was itching the whole day!! wanted so badly to scratch... but managed to control myself... but when i got back home, i sprayed lots and lots of the anti-itch spray thingy i got from the place i did my cornrows. *phew* relief.

and.. HAPPY MERDEKA! hmmm... don't really feel very patriotic now... oh well.. how you enjoyed your merdeka.

As for Liverpool on sunday, what can i say? sigh... foiled by a linesman with bad eyesight... haha... hope things will look up after this though...

Just another Sunday...

2004-08-29T18:12:00.000+08:00

Well... this post is just a post for the sake of having a post. :P

Naaaah... I actually do have a few things in my mind......and one on my head!! hahaha!!
Just corn-rowed my hair yesterday! :) It looks ok, i suppose... If anyone wants to check it out, check my friendster profile, i'll be putting up pix of it there real soon...

Also.. looking forward to tonight's match at the Reebok stadium! (for those who don't know what i'm talking about, then i suppose that you don't need to know...hehe...) Hoping that i can see a good LFC team out there. A combination of Firsthalf vs Spurs and 2nd half vs ManC would be GREAT! looking forward to seeing Alonso and Garcia in action, wanna see what they're capable of...

Rescued yet again

2004-08-22T16:29:00.000+08:00

It's Sunday again and guess what? I was the worship leader... well.. here's the story.

As you would already know, I've not been feeling exactly very cheerful lately, more melancholic and slightly depressed lately (but feeling a lil better than last...) . I suppose this really affected me in worship leading. was really out of sorts, my voice was making weird out of tune noises at practice last night and i just couldn't hold a note properly last night. At practice start, I only have 3 songs decided!! yikes!! and this is Sunday Service, we're talking about! Manage to scrape up 2 more songs as the practice went on. Really felt beaten when the practice ended. Then went for some fellowship with the musicians and other church mates (watched Liv win 2-1 as well!!! YEAH!!!)...

When i reached home, i was like: "God, if you don't help me now, the worship tomorrow will be dead!!!"... Anyway... i was half praying and half worrying and all the while listening to Hillsongs' By Your Side God spoke to me ... Then i changed some songs around, replaced one song and sorta redid the whole 'theme'...

And once again, God came and worked through me. I'm pretty proud to say that I was pretty much an empty vessel just being used by God this morning.... He came and made everything ok. The worship was fine as far as i could tell and felt that most people were blessed (i hope!) and most of all, I'm pretty sure He was blessed...

Moral of the story? Surrendering is not something that is easy for most of us. but when we do, God always comes and does his bit to make sure that His plans go well... It's really easy to think about it but i'm hoping that i can surrender and trust Him on His timing and plans... Not an easy thing to do, but will try none the less...

Some depressing stuff...

2004-08-15T15:03:00.000+08:00

No... i'm not gonna talk about the injustices around world or about any of the poor children around the world... For now, im gonna wallow in a lil bit of self-pity (well... maybe i'll let you decide if it's self-pity) and gripe about a few things.

I've actually been kinda depessed since i got in uni 2 years ago. Tho i had some nice patches between then and now, I've really been disappointed with what i have and what's been happening to me. I'll leave out the things that happened long ago, cuz if i started, i'll take til tomorrow to finish this gripe...

As most ppl already know, i've been working part time for a month plus. I just got my pay-check just two weeks ago and guess what? It's less that a hundred... sigh... though i'm hopeful that i'll get more as time goes, i still can't help but be a bit affected by that. I mean, it's my first pay-check in the line of work that i'm studying for, fer cryin' out loud!

Then there's this question about guitar gear and stuff like that... money has been really hard to come by these few months. I can't afford to buy any of the gear that i want/need. I mean, I am 'supposed to be' a music student majoring in music tech/sound engineering. My friends doing medicine (Ju), business (Sam), pharmacy(KJ) etc all have better gear than I do... sigh... can't even afford to buy a decent amp here. Thought of getting an amp modeler instead (cheaper, i thought), but can't even really afford a good one now... sure i have a great Tak, but it just doesn't feel like it's enough.. for those non-guitarist reading: guitarist who want to play for a living CAN'T survive with just one type of guitar, you need to have a variety for the different sounds used in different sounds. Am i being picky?? i dunno... my SQUIER strat is like crap (that's how i feel about now anyway), and the pick-ups (best part of guitar) aren't even mine (tribute to Ju for loaning them to me)!! sigh... really depressing here...

As if not having guitar gear is bad enough, I can't even start thinking of getting recording/pro audio equipment yet.. that's like i need at least 5k TO START! sigh..

in case all of you haven't realised yet, i'm 'supposed to be' a musician/sound engineer... THESE THINGS ARE MY TOOLS OF TRADE!!!! sigh...

it's really easy to say that i have knowledge that not many have, but I guess that's not consolation enough. This is supposed to be my livelihood... knowledge is useless if i don't have tools to work with... sigh...

and further more, where am i heading? i mean, teaching is really fulfilling and all, but that's not what i really want to do. I really want to do studio work and stuff like that... i wanna produce someone's album, i want to set up concert sound-systems, i want to engineer music for people. How can i do that? UPM doesn't even have the facilities set-up properly for me to try out all the different things i can do on pro audio equipment.. sigh... and i'm supposed to learn there.. the classes don't cater me... i DO NOT claim to be an expert but my the lecturers are forced to teach basic things because... ermm... nah... shouldn't say it.. i really don't wanna insult/offend my coursemates. So you draw your own conclusion...

I also wanna further my studies. I want to do a post grad in Sound Engineering, Music production or something related. where can i do that here? UPM???? don't even have the facilities set-up properly. anywhere else? UMS? I'm not impressed at what they have. Where do i have in mind? University of Miami looks interesting, some Unis in UK look good... but guess what? $$$... or rather the lack of it... WHAT TO DO!?!?! don't even have money to get an air-ticket there let alone study there... sigh...

self-pity? You tell me. Whatever it is... it still depresses me....

Back home!!

2004-08-11T01:50:00.000+08:00

WHEEEEEEEE!!!!
i'm finally back home in ipoh right now...just came back yesterday.
went yumcha with my friends too at night...
it's hard to think that i haven't been back for two months... might not seem much for a lot of you, but ipoh is only 2 and half hours' drive from kl.... and usually i come back every 2-3 weeks.. wow... this is the longest for me, i think... but surprisingly, i haven't been homesick.. just missed my mom n pop...

i'm just very glad that my pop has learnt to control his diabetic condition pretty well... n he's also learnt when he can take extra sugar as well!!hahaha.. happy for him...
my mom is the usual.... no biggie and no hype sorta mom... :D just wish that she'd be in kl to cook for me!!! oh well... looking forward to what she's gonna whip up while i'm back.

hope i can get lots of R & R back here... cuz it's gonna be back to classes, assignments and work when i get back to kl in a few days' time...

hmmm... i'm starting to miss my babygirl... sigh... when i'm far, she finally starts being extra cheerful.. maybe i should go far from kl more often... point to ponder... hehehe....

one more thing...

2004-08-07T15:12:00.000+08:00

oh yeah... really need to say this... am kinda really excited that my 'baby' sister is in kl.... i'm 'kidnapping' her from her school trip thingy tomorrow and am gonna take her around...

after all these weeks and years in kl has made me realise something...
i really do love my sis... no matter how annoying and how crappy she manages to get!! hahaha...
it's really cool that we always seem to be at each other's throats and yet still manage to share a special brother-sister bond.

can't wait to pamper her on sat and sun... hahaha...

ps. to the other girls: start getting jealous!!! hahahaha!!!

Arrgh!!!!

2004-08-07T15:01:00.000+08:00

Know what's the worse thing about playing in a session?

I was kinda playing my guitar to be recorded in one my classes... my coursemates were doing the recording...
so i actually concentrated on the whole thing and paid full attention to what i was playing... those who know me well will know that i have the attention span of a gnat... hahaha...
so i played... and i played.. and i played... and they said that it's a wrap...

when they tried to play it back... actually, they couldn't play it back!! ARRRGH!!! i have no idea what went wrong... but so frustrating... and furthermore i was sight-reading!!! that really sucks...

i'm actually looking forward to tomorrow. am meeting up with an old high school buddy of mine (not to mention jamming partner)... taking him around to check out some guitars... heheh.... drooling at the prospects... can't wait to pick out all the really expensive guitars and start jamming with him....whoooooo.... tangan gatal already...

speaking of jamming... had a great wednesday nightjamming (welll... sorta jamming anyway) with vix... managed to spit out some semblance of a song... can't wait to see what he can do with it... lyrics and melody wise....

Jeff

Look at me!!

2004-08-07T07:27:00.000+08:00

Look at me!! I'm a blogger!!!
hahahaha...
anway... i'm starting this blog thing for a few reasons...
i think sometimes i NEED to get things off my mind... NEED to throw it outta my head... feels real good spreading my soul around the world...haha...
aaaaand, i think it'd be a good place for my friends to catch up on how i'm doing... yeah yeah... i see the eyes rolling already... i do suck at keeping in contact... so here's my lazy attempt to keep my buds updated on me...
there you have it.. the first post....next one coming up reeeeeal soon... i hope... hehehe...

Nothing is Black & White; It's all shades of Grey

The Awakening

grey and fading fast

Of Tidal Waves And Change

Normality of Tedious Routines Resumes

Work work *in warcraft III peon style*

Alive

Bad Management and Horrible Attitude (bmha)

PAINT ISTANBUL RED!!

Not dead

Dreaming for a wish

Stupid currency exchange

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Mom

Sick things do happen

Slipping into some sort of routine

Gasp!

EEEEpoh...

Work, work...

Adrenalinn!!!!

Talking about Guitars...

Liverpool and the Tsunami

Merry Christmas!!

Believing without Seeing?

Dedicated to Michelle

Current Mood

Guitar heaven...

Laksa Laksa and Laksa

Something to be proud of?

A Small Tribute

KL, oh, KL.

update?

Good and Bad in Ipoh

Home

A good week?

Holding on to Blessing

Til the end of time.

What's in a pet?

whoa boy...

Grumpy...

FREE FOOD!!!

How good am I?

Of sorethroats and waking up

Ugh...

Gasp!

Just another Sunday...

Rescued yet again

Some depressing stuff...

Back home!!

one more thing...

Arrgh!!!!

Look at me!!

Work work in warcraft III peon style